Nothing

Tonight I have nothing.  I have nothing insightful or profound.  There is nothing that I have been planning in my head throughout the day to write.  Tonight I do not want to write.  Tomorrow I will go with my mom and sister to the second funeral I have attended since my dad's.  I would not miss it.  Jon has been a rock for our family and I can only imagine how difficult it will be for him to know that my dad will not be there to give him a hug and offer his support.  Deep down I am anxious and scared to go.  My great aunt's funeral was so soon after my dad's that I was still living a very deep haze.  Tomorrow, I do not know what to expect... how my body and mind will react to another father being laid to rest.  All I know is that no matter how hard it might be for me, it will be harder for Jon and his family.  So, I will muster up all the courage I have and go to honor another incredible man.